So, what?

The Philippine Bus Hostage drama became a huge topic last night, August 23, 2010. It also became a trending topic in Twitter. In fact, 5 out of 10 trending topics were from the famous RP.


I just had to write about this. I felt that it's a necessity. Haha. And... It feels good to write here, 'cause I know that no one reads. And yeah, that's cool :))


When I first heard about the news. Hm, I think that was morning pa, since I have no classes during Mondays. I just saw the news flash from my Tweetdeck. (Yeah, I have a twitter. But I don't tweet. Lame ayt? I just use it for stalking. Haha, yeah that's fun.). It just reminded me of those lame hostage takings before. I mean the ones that were just made for publicity or any of the like. So, basically, I just ignored the news. I never thought that it would turn out to be one of the most traumatic events of my generation. 


Okay.. so it was already evening. News was already on. And the supposed to be "nationwide news" was just focused on 3 things. The death of Melody Gersbach. The Korean pastor that was killed. And the bus drama. I was like, "What? Yan pa rin? Kanina pa yan ah." I don't really watch TV. Due to the schedule kong pang-artista, I don't have time to watch. Or siguro I prefer spending my time in front of the computer kesa sa TV. That was around 7pm when I started focusing sa panunuod. I left for a while because I had to cook dinner, which di ko rin nakain on time due to the tension that's happening sa news. My eyes were glued to the TV screen for 2 hours straight. That was the first time that I really watched news. Cause I admit that I don't really care that much sa current affairs. I suck, yeah.


I don't really react that much sa news. The things na madalas marinig sakin ay, "Normal naman yan, hayaan na." or "O talaga may ganung nangyari, di kasi ako nanuod.". But last night was different.  I think I over-reacted. I over-reacted in a MAJOR way.


First. I felt humiliated. Nahiya ako na Pilipino ako. Naasar ako sa sobrang bagal ng pagresponde ng mga pulis at ng SWAT. I was furious. I was saying stuff like, "Ang tanga! Bat kayo umaatras, pulis kayo diba? Anu ba naman yan! Nakakahiya na ang Pilipinas o!" Seriously, I had a hard time forgiving the police :)) I mean, they broke the bus' window for like 30 minutes. What the heck? That's too much time. They used a rope to pull the door, and the rope broke. It was becoming funny already. Tactics are too lame. Were they even tactics? :|


Second. I hated the media. They were broadcasting EVERYTHING that's happening. Even the movements of the police. Like, what the heck? The bus has a TV inside! Were they even thinking? :| I know that it's theier responsibility to inform people about what's happening. But they should inform people about the "truth". One station disseminated an information without confirming it first. They announced that all of the people inside the bus was already dead... even if they aren't. I mean yeah, the driver was traumatized, but they should confirm it first before telling the whole world about it. Sucks.


Third. CNN. Yeah, that's cool. RP: one of those dangerous countries... again. Shame. Bye tourism. Bye reputation. Goodluck, Noynoy.


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After all the drama. I watched A Cinderella Story. It felt good... laughing at Hillary Duff and Chad Michael Murray while they were making pacute. I AM SO APATHETIC. That was what I realized while watching the chick flick.


I was so judgmental. I was so tactless. I was so... apathetic.


Anong ginawa ko para makatulong sa commotion? Tumulong ba ako? Did I take part in eradicating tension and fear? May nagawa ba ako?


WALA. 


Who was I to be ashamed? Wala naman akong nagawa. Nakaupo ako dito sa tapat ng computer, safe na safe, habang yung mga pulis dun eh nagririsk ng buhay. I mean they were really slow, but still, they did their part. They did what they were supposed to do. It may not be perfect, it may not pass my standards, but they did their best. Even if there's a fact that they didn't have enough weapons and tactics kahit sila yung SWAT. While I was at my house, galit sakanila, eh ako wala naman akong ginagawa para makatulong.


Sino ako para sisihin ang media? They were in the exact location where the commotion happened. They were the ones who experienced the whole thing. They heard the sound of bullets coming out from guns. They saw the traumatized people. They too, were traumatized. At ako, ang sarap ng upo ko dito. Nagbabasa ng mga tweet at status ng mga tao. Asar ako sa media, pero wala naman akong nagawa. Reklamo ako nang reklamo,  nakatulong bako? :|


Sino ako para mahiyang Pilipino ako? Ang kapal naman ng mukha ko kung itatakwil ko Pilipinas through words dahil lang sa isang bagay na yun. I realized... there are really a lot of better countries out there. Better economy. Better environment. Better temperature. Better everything. Pero kahit ano pa yung mga better na yun, di ko pagpapalit ang Pilipinas ko. Hindi masisira ng isang bad news ang allegiance ko sa bansang to. Wala na nga akong naitulong sa sitwasyon, nagreklamo pako, nahiya pakong Pilipino ako. Shame on me.


Ni di ko nga nagawang magpray nung mga panahong nangyayari yun. Nagpray ako kung kelan tapos na :( 


Sobrang bilis ng oras, pag dumaan, di na babalik. Di satin nakasentro ang mundo kaya di to titigil para satin. 


"Hindi natin pwedeng sabihan ng "teka" ang mundo. 
Hindi natin pwedeng patigilin agad ang gulo. 
Bumalik na lamang tayo,
Kung Kanino nagsimula lahat ng ito."